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last night we went & watched The Unborn. yes, solely because of Gary Oldman. Gary Oldman playing rabbi Sendak. ( riiight... )~ laughing so much & so hard you had to sit down might not be a normal reaction to a horror film, but who cares! in other news & olds, I still work for them damn'd bastards, own an iPod classic [named Tonya & wrapped in this skin], try to get by and even make sense. some days are better than the others. Tags: gary
mood:  amused
sound: System of a Down - Question
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это таки было похоже на премьеру. почти полный зал людей в теме, пришедших именно посмотреть на Бэтмана. правильный зритель, честно аплодировавший в финале! (не стоя, правда, но и смотрели не Эпизод Третий...) честные фильммахеры, ничего не засунувшие за финальные титры '-) ужасный звук (то ли так и надо было, то ли системный дефект, но на грани слышимости гнусное электронное(?) завывание = головная боль, блин) и ужасный кинотеатр Глобус: пришлось найти и облаять работников уже после начала фильма, чтобы в зале полностью открыли занавес. и х...орошо с ними. а теперь ( сказко. )~ sweet dreams now '-) Tags: gary, videogasm
mood:  mellow
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woke at 6. turned the alarm off. promptly fell back to sleep for another 7 minutes... ...and saw you. dancing and singing through times of day & life. your hair changed from pale flame red to reddish brown to brown with a touch of silver, and your eyes, for a split second, were pure gold, and your voice... they were right. there was something of young David Bowie in you. and yet this unmistakable guilty - knowing - but untainted innocence that is purely you. one song, too. just one & beautiful, and I cannot remember a thing except 'you left me for', which must've been irony #-) still cannot quite believe it. my subconscious does disturb me sometimes, but ♥ never mind. you're welcome. ~ tried to type this entry at work, and our UPS unit burned out. irony, yeah... Tags: dream, gary
mood:  high
sound: Bush - Everything Zen
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hey. what's with the music? because I look at a picture of you, and it's just *there*. Leonard, of course. suggestive, of course. don't ever... oh, damn, as I should have said all these years ago, don't ever stop being yourself. don't ever stop being don't stop ... good thing I didn't say it after all? #-) far away, so close. ♥ Tags: gary
mood: lovesick
sound: leonard cohen - do I have to dance all night?
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okay, where do you draw the line? how do you know where to draw the line? how can you tell with precision where the artist ends and the person begins? can you part craft and life, make a clean cut? can you? can anyone? because it does not take that much to cross the distance, because even perfect masks do slip, and... where do you draw the line? because it all boils down to love, pure and simple and inexplicable, illogical and unreasonable, and no matter how many proper and politically correct words you spin around it, it boils down to only 3. [and crying over a letter written in 1998 makes no sense at all now, does it?..] "I'd be crazy glad if you found a reason to stay, because I love you" would've been an honest but wrong thing to say, yes? and I was too young and clueless even to find the right few words... oh hell. I will probably even work this line-drawing into something, like learning from and growing up and stuff, but the real thing is, right now my heart is bleeding all over the place, and damned if I know why this line-drawing threw me so. 's not as though anything can be done... or changed, for that matter. now, a good, sensible thing to do about it... would be to write something. anything. just take it & twist into inspiration #-) must do... Tags: gary
mood: screwed up
sound: Damien Rice - the blower's daughter
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what do you know... I still have them. the articles. I've found them. *grins like mad and does a dance* oh my God... printed out when my teachers happened to look the other way? on dot matrix printers? using carbon paper? [red, in one case] faded. 8 years old. 8 years of L... the stuff... it's antique, it has historical value by now..! oh dear. the articles I learned my English from. [with notes, omfgsquee] when instead of studying for a top grade I was studying the many sides of Gary Oldman? 's unbelievable #-) movie cancelled tonight, I believe... Tags: gary
mood:  ecstatic
sound: Nickelback - Someday
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leather. black or very, very dark brown. comfortably worn. subtly there. casual with an edge. and the two men who never fail to short-circuit my brain & heart just happen to look too fine in leather jackets. oh. ... 5 chapters into HBP, and keep being... distracted '-) Like a Virgin, I'll never be able to hear you & keep a straight face #-) Tags: gary
mood: mellow
sound: Nickelback - Too Bad
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HBP: resting on my HD. waiting '-) probably for the hour - the day? - when my essential reaction to life won't be *flail*. because right now it is #-) *flails* shall we liquefy, you and I, and mingle in the sea? ~ ETA: it... seems to be a temporal loop of sorts. things *have* changed since 1997[?], and how, but not all of them, and remaining ones are some fundamental constants, strong enough to pull - drag - me back to that sweet October, and so it goes round and round... I really ought to write a... letter, perhaps, of love and loss [well, I *did* lose my scholarship over it!] and madness divine... *merfle* '-) Tags: gary
mood:  complacent
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have stayed up till 4 a.m. damned if I know why. maybe it was the sunshine... something more subtle? quiet? than charisma, but just as powerful: radiant... making life glow from within... when one least expects it to #-) it was midnight when I decided to watch - finally - Prick Up Your Ears... so it was a crazy night. ~ shining through and awakening this strange desire to be far away, so close ~ the golden ... Tags: gary
mood:  calm
sound: Perry Como - Magic Moments
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when you feel this enormous tenderness for someone you have known for years, known true despite never really meeting them, and it's so big it melts your heart and comes out as tears, and you cannot stop crying? that's... wrong. but that's how it is tonight. so sorry, love. ~ ETA... oh. oh, love... here I was all like holding something priceless and fragile in my hands, only said hands shook so badly I'd drop & break it, and teary and all, and then this: Q. Finally, if you were given the chance to live forever, but were unable to ever have sex again, would you go for it? A. Yes. No hesitation. I could watch. all teary now because I laughed too hard. that's so... *us*, dammit #-) God bless you & your ways of thinking, and THANK you. for everything. Tags: gary
mood:  broken
sound: Sting - Desert Rose
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even when my eyes burn & water at a mere glance at a computer monitor, I find out I still can look at the photos of Gary Oldman. it's like... ...magic? love conquers all indeed. headache? gone. eye troubles? gone. allergic sneezing? gone & forgotten. instead there is something warm and gentle melting slowly behind my eyes and inside my chest, making me forget to breathe now and then. we walked together again in a dream tonight, and I can't remember a thing about it, but it was a quiet, sweet, undisturbed night, first in a long time... ah, Gary. ... *faint* Tags: gary
mood:  happy
sound: Leonard Cohen - Here it is
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so, what DVD did I play with tonight? ...right, Bram Stocker's Dracula. because it's so. much. love... ...escpecially The Making of documentary. (er. not the making of love documentary, but oh, so close #-) ( D is for... )also, Dracula reciting Shakespeare's sonnets? aw-w-w #-) Tags: caps, gary
mood:  excited
sound: Leonard Cohen - Suzanne
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