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a meme, picked up at [info]lady_twatterby's:
What was the #1 song the day you were born? Google the date and #1 song and then post your #1 song on your LJ - preferably with a Youtube vid if you can find one!
it... figures '-)

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there's balance in the universe: today I writes you gentle, light-hearted, low-sugar fluff '-)

title: And There Was Light
fandom: Batman [nolanverse]
author: [info]elefwin
rating: G
words: about 600
summary: James Gordon had confess'd that he failed to change light bulbs in his own basement. so, what exactly does it take to screw in a light bulb in Gotham?
notes: written for dear [info]black_dragon
do go on )

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sound: Manic Street Preachers - Your Love Alone Is Not Enough

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no, I ain't dead, not yet. it just feels like some important parts of me had been taken half the globe away & left there, scattered all over the place... and time.
yes, I have to come back to me senses before I screw up worse than is. working on that, somewhat '-)
so I... write more odd stories, which are, thanks to Nanae Chrono, *not* RPF '-)

title: Fuyu no Oni
fandom: Peacemaker Kurogane [manga]
author: [info]elefwin
rating: PG
words: about 800
warning: no beta, yes WTF.
summary: conscience is a troublesome thing to have.
notes: fits [info]cliche_bingo's getting physical prompt.
and so... )

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sound: Fukasawa Hideyuki - Hakodate

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somewhat to my shame
I'm 32 years old now
feels nothing like it #-)

dear friends, BE.
be happy & healthy & well ♥

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sound: Fukasawa Hideyuki - Hijikata Toshizou

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love is terrifying.
with its power, and stealth, and disregard for such trivial things as time and space, to say nothing of languages and cultures, nay, life and death mean little to it...
love, indeed, is a frightful thing.
I do not quite envy, but I'm glad for those who find *reasonable* love. there is only so much wildfire a soul can take.

a gentle curve & a sharp edge, there, far east. a frontier.

I really should've known better, right?

mood: cynical

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I'm still a great waste of time, etc., etc., yadda...

in retrospect, posting the first Russian story to AO3 is not much of an accomplishment, is it? '-)

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sound: Faithless - We Come One

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well, there's been this meme...
y'know, those situations when you can't, really can not do or say anything useful, helpful, encouraging, and what you can do will be harmful, so you just don't? do they suck...
so I do a meme in the dead of the night.

I name about 20 books/movies/anime/TV shows/video games/bands I like, you guess my favourite character from each, we... brag about the results and exchange fannish gifts? why not.
1. Lord of the Rings [book]
2. The Silmarillion
3. Star Wars, classic trilogy
4. Star Wars, prequels
5. Discworld
6. Harry Potter
7. Bleach
8. Peacemaker Kurogane
9. Rose Red
10. Ravenous
11. The Phantom of the Opera
12. X-Files
13. House M.D.
14. Near Dark
15. Tombstone
16. Star Trek TOS
17. Mahabharata
18. Marvel comics
19. Once Upon a Time in Mexico
20. Transformers
21. The Kabir Cycle by H.L.Oldie
22. Equilibrium
23. A.Dumas's Musketeers trilogy
24. Jules Verne's books

meep...
[info]black_dragon , 19/24. anyone else?

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as an example of where my brain has gone here be this old thing.
*er*, told you so '-)

title: (1)
fandom: Bleach
author: [info]elefwin
rating: G
words: 420
summary: the series' One True One PWP.
Starrk sleeps... )

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sound: Clint Mansell - Xibalba

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I just... er.
very much er.
I... got lost somewhere on my way to normal life.
in the past month or so I have written... not bad stuff, watched quite a few amazing films and translated one of them, learned a bit more about CSS and some video editing software, learned some simple but neat Photoshop tricks, laughed way too much, confused and amused good people, did a bar swim, learned yet more random Japanese words...
aww, I've been utterly useless - from an objective, practical point of view.
there, there.
poke me.

mood: awake
sound: Vanessa Mae - Solace

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herein be proof that nothing, but nothing is new under the sun, and life moves in mysterious ways spirals.
this particular spiral had apparently begun about 10 years ago. tell me about blast from the past!
not much at first: an impression, a shallow grave groove...

Tadanobu Asano, from Taboo (Gohatto, 1999)


unfurl. )

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sound: Toriumi Kousuke - Pink

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today was... not my day.
I locked myself out of the apartment. I spent about two hours in a queue for nothing. I spent the next 4 hours at a shopping mall, where, among other things, I found out that memory cards my camera uses are sorta out of production. [yes, now I have one messed up card and a possibly dead card reader, and several good photos lost.] most fortunately I had Advil with me, for I was heartily sick most of the time.
the only person with the keys to the apartment got stuck in another town for another hour.
...and when I finally got home my brand new cell phone was missing. so I went back into the dark, using my old phone as a dowsing rod, and found the thing under a flamboyant tree [there actually is a kinf of tree called flamboyant in Israel, will tell in a happier hour].
when yesterday I said this day would be something else I did NOT mean like this #-(

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sound: Ryusei Nakao & Rie Kugimiya - 12

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the thing is... nothing particularly worth telling about happened. no, really. any day now RL is gonna start kicking me, hard, for loitering with intent.
~
jasmine-flavoured tea session happened. )
~
then I, uh... got sucked into another black hole fandom, against all odds -- yeah, there were days when I seriously thought I'd never read comics, too, -- and something strange happened. I read & watch canon in English only, but fanstuff? mostly in Russian. beats me why. maybe Russian ways of thinking are that bit closer to Japanese original? anyway. I've been spamming the web in my mother tongue. even wrote a classic romantic fic, Bummer: A Love Story [in Russian. I've also been translating *between* Russian, English & Romanian, but I don't think I'll ever do this one].
~
then there's fooling around with a marker & a camera improvisation:
not!cosplay )
~
I owe so much to so many %(

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sound: Shiro Sagisu - Invasion

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the sad fact that the paper is, frustratingly, not exactly square will not stop us '-) the process is most exciting. especially the pinwheel module stage, which in my case goes smth. like this: fold a spoke, get the hang of it, now turn the whole thing in your hands until it settles just right.
I do need origami paper.
and a job.
and a good reason to go on.
er.

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sound: placebo - the bitter end

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someday soon I'll touch down, I'll have to. but for now?

an icon meme from [info]bwinter:
[01] Comment to this entry saying 'ICONS!' and I will pick 6 of your icons.
[02] Make an entry in your own journal and talk about the icons I picked!
go! )

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sound: placebo - twenty years

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I wear these. )

#-)

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sound: Nautilus Pompilius - Титаник

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wherein Elfie meets Bleach, iconically )

...hellp?

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sound: Sting - Be Still My Beating Heart

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the main reason I do not make race fail is this: I don't get there, I fail earlier. I do not feel -- am not -- connected or conscious enough. it is a BAD thing & cause of many a trouble. I look at those social experiments and tests and find out I am prejudiced against people, no matter their color. not good.
what's weird is... how to put this? when there is a story to be told, I can see where it goes bad re: aspects of humanity. now, to learn that not everything can be reduced to bad writing...

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sound: Faithless - Tarantula

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Nick Happy and his Yodeling Commandos.
*facepalms, runs away*
the world conspires.

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sound: Torn Apart

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apparently there is a subconscious brain/canon link: writing freezes until canon moves on & over that block. it sucks a lot.
[on the one hand, thanks, I know where to take it now. on the other, no thanks, I have to rewrite half of it now. rrr. that's what one gets for setting a story in the present.]

other old news: yep, I am that snobby fanbrat who always craves impossible things. not only I want stories about... idiosyncratic combinations of characters, I want them well-written and somewhat canon-compliant. thus I end up with cases of mental indigestion and try to do it myself, and we all know how I write #-(

rats.

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sound: Knock-Knock-Knock

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that Beat Collection, highlights )

...awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww '-)

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sound: Hyouri

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lookit Translation Party. be afraid, for it is time consuming crack #-)

evidence )

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...God, I love this song. hellllllllp...

mood: amused
sound: Bleach Beat Collection - Hyouri

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turns out I strongly dislike vodka. I'm a rum girl '-)
jasmine tea, on the other hand, is fragrant and gentle. mmm, yum.
~
turns out there was a festival in our town, and we somehow got there a couple of hours before it closed '-) there were... amazing machines, artistic improvisation, kleizmer bands, bubbles, fireworks..! and balloons #-)
well, ever since DWCon 2004 I wanted a balloon sword, and 5 years later I got one.
in black. )
~
so there's that. also, I need a [friendly] kick to finish the only story that seems to have some plot. the Bleach one is a totally lost case of fanart writing #-)

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sound: Bleach Beat Collection - Zan

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congratulations, it's past midnight and I'm writing a stupid fic based on canon I hardly know & am allergic to. go me. [well, it told me its name, what can a girl DO?]

then I looked at everything I've done and might yet do for the bingo, and what do you know! all those stories, all of them, are about death in some way. characters start out or end up dead. characters think and/or speak about death. characters impersonate death. it looms, dammit.
*headdesk*
since when has my cliché bingo become a private softcore necro... fest?

ETA: eh? dear story, I'm glad you have discovered your well-balanced inner structure, and okay, you know I have a blood kink, but *where* the hell do you think you're going?! the... world does not work that way!
but you're funny '-)

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sound: Clint Mansell - Death Is The Road To Awe

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I'm becoming allergic to life. again.

also, when mind realized that getting physical: touching, hugging and cuddling bingo prompt was quickly becoming a WTF Bleach fanfic it freaked out and brought up that kawaii lovely bittersweet Kenobi/Organa story I meant to tell a long time ago and in a galaxy far, far away...
no love, mind.
none.
poor unfinished 616 happy ending #-(

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sound: Kin-Dza-Dza theme

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ahem. sorry, that was loud. but deserved. but... okay, The Invincible Iron Man spoiler ahead.
after THIS I feel entitled to a well-contained hysterical laughing fit.
*commences*
guh... really, guys, you could not have done that, like, [half] a year ago?
*carries on*
guess I ought to finish that one bingo story now. Tony fcking Stark, your fcked up motivator... ♥

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deary me. the next one will be happy, I swear.

title: Death and the Maiden
fandom: Hellboy II
author: [info]elefwin
rating: G
words: 600
warning: no beta, midnight writing, despondency.
summary: we all fight alone, faerie are islands too.
notes: written for [info]cliche_bingo's episode tags and missing scenes prompt.
read me! )

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sound: Damien Rice - the blower's daughter

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some time ago I have, ah, discovered Bleach. [why, YES, I am most unwise.]
being a barbarian, I got it all wrong, of course #-)
so... here's my OneWTF3. the text is original. [info]vimeslady, Starrk is the one on the right '-)

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...nyargh. )

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really...
...and then there are Ultimate Avengers. words, anyone?!

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sound: INXS - Never Tear Us Apart

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those good old "list N characters, answer [crack] questions about them, PROFIT" memes? can't do them anymore, what with being an unimaginative scatterbrain. after a certain small amount of bad ideas and batshit scenarios generated brain shuts down. some things, however...
simple questions, actually, like "Is Starrk hot? How hot?"
*meditates*
*thinks about great cosmic indifferent solitude*
*meditates some more*
yrs truly, easily distracted & confused.

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life is, indeed, confusing. I fail a job interview, because I cannot sell shit. once everyone and their mother got that, I'm offered another opportunity... interview for a job with prior experience in marketing and sales required. o_0

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no, seriously, WTF with the brain? give me a canon, and I'll come up with half a dozen WTF-situations that will seem perfectly logical and/or natural to me. mind works in mysterious and disturbing ways. esp. immense cultural differences considered '-)
[and psychologists wonder why I have so few friends. because very few can stand WTF overdrive, which is not, alas, fandom-restricted.]
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I used to associate this song with T.E.Lawrence. ha, said the universe... and gave me disassembled someone.
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in RL news, library research rocks, Advil is a lifesaver, and ripped USA flag iPod skin still looks cool. pfft.

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sound: Наутилус Помпилус - Крылья

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not good news: job not found, teeth a mess, me - an even bigger mess, same old, same old.
not bad news: lived all right through tooth extraction, been taken to Jerusalem and back on a failed job interview, got tickets to the one & only Leonard Cohen concert in Israel. [this last one is, in fact, BEST news. pray all is well up to & on September 24.]
balance?
Zen?!

oh, and when, back then, I said I did not have enough bingo ideas a dear friend had wisely told me that they would come. right. they have. and they are MAD! [and still do not form a complete line, grrrr...] anyway, I will not fail it completely now. nice '-)

[and I am a coward, which is not new either. a certain kind of coward. which is also why, I guess, I like Ravenous so much: it strikes a chord.]

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dear Elfie, really. you have one hell of a week to face, you are not ready for it, your life is a fcking mess, y'know?
then there is a deadline, and you have virtually nothing to show. you have plans, though.
be a good girl, follow that through. get your shit together, finish what you had started.
learn to count.
do not start new WTFs, try.
that said, Starrk has dead eyes is a good opening, true, but DROP IT pls? do not write off a canon you barely know. do not write anime-based fanfiction.
no love at all #-(

[but Starrk does have dead eyes, and a pack of lone wolves forever runs through the Hollow World night...]

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title: Nunc Id Vides
fandom: The Ultimates [Marvel 1610]
author: [info]elefwin
beta: [info]jazzypom the amazing
rating: T
words: 1K+
warning: character death [seriously, almost everyone in the fic is or ends up dead]. and WTF.
summary: Steve Rogers sees dead people. good grief.
notes: if not exactly written for then at least inspired by [info]cliche_bingo's hallucinations/visions prompt.
onwards... )

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mood: thirsty
sound: Steve Jablonsky - Prime

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so this most wretched piece of writing is done. as done as done can be. it is not really a story, it's 1.5 pages of notes taken on a weird trip, and that is how it will stay. and I shall sleep and not think what to do with it. there, all well.
~
still need an antidote, though. hellp '-)

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sound: por una cabeza

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Elefwin is a creature of habit. of a bad habit to find attraction in the impossible. therefore she is always hungry I do not have OTPs, I have O*WTF*Ps.
they deserve each other - and wreck their world[s] spectacularly. they are perfect together, but light years apart. they said it with lethal stab wounds. or their distaste for each other is epic #-)
...and then I stepped into some anime. guess how that went #-) if anything, though, this particular OWTFP would definitely sleep together, quite literally #-)
kawaii! *facepalm*

mind me not much & blame this on one Mr Rogers: I need an antidote, dammit

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sound: Time Machine - Tiny Heroes

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to ward off existential terror, I do another meme, as seen at [info]jazzypom's:

List the first lines of your last twenty stories. See if you find any patterns.
[and the fact that I was hard pressed to make 20 is telling us something.]
anyway )

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have just seen Ultimatum #5.
WTF.
dear gods, WTF. Z, you were right about Wolverine. still, WTF?!

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3 [three] of my crowns just fell out.
on a weekend.
and my Sunday is pretty busy already, and after that things are uncertain.
but hey! let's see whether Elfie will shred her tongue with the sad [but sharp] remains of her teeth! or swallow something 10 years old that... okay. one quest at a time.

...fuck!

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*snorts*
so there's this Russian article, which - wait for it - links patriotism directly to men's reproductive health.
that's right. patriotism: your key to a high sperm count!
I am laughing too hard to translate the list of fulfilling patriotic activities, you'll have to imagine that.
*facepaaaaalm*

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sound: Unheilig - Eva

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this WIP codename WTF, it has already screwed me over twice: once when it suddenly decided to be written and once yesterday, showing its true colors in the end, when there was no way to go but onwards. let's hope there won't be a third time, where I hit a spectacular dry spell once it is done.
really, though. it started with a vision, brief and clear, and now if I squint hard I can find traces of that in the... work. traces. and what creeped in instead? I can't facepalm hard enough. you sly bastard of a fic. all right, I'll play, let's finish it...

...oh, hai, The Fountain flashback!

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sound: Unheilig - Willenlos

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there's a kind of... quiet feud going on between Google Docs and MS Word? so they fuck up each other's formatting, oh-kay, the formatting goes, save for bare basics. but then they come up with different word count results for the same text. how..? and which one can be trusted, then?
o_0

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sound: Nautilus Pompilius - Бриллиантовые дороги

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well, sith. it looks like I am writing that Ultimates thing I mentioned more than a month ago. way to go, me. let's see if I can write myself into a bad place.
then I'll... dunno, print it out, give myself paper cuts and burn the thing.
of all the... it has to be shorthand angst. shoot me.

on a happier note, SDCC! I'm so... glad I was not there? 'cause I doubt they'd have had the cider to resuscitate me #-)

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Marvel Anime.
Marvel. Anime.
Iron Man and Wolverine.
kill me pls.

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mind me not, I'm just reading another Ultimates book.
that said, FCK! )

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sound: Unheilig - Mona Lisa

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then there's the subject of timing. I've been remembering my epic fail of DWCon-2008 only to realize that, well. were I not so slow & out of it, the situation would've been SO much worse #-) because if I had seen IM on time, when it was in theatres... current consequences considered, I just do not know #-) I really don't.

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sound: Unheilig - Memoria

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so I've been thinking...
I have seen HP & HBP last Thursday and have words to say about it, but. but they spoiled everything with that [in]famous Sherlock Holmes trailer right before the movie proper. what were they thinking? I mean, who does that?! first, my quiet ecstatic "Well, fuck me sideways!" scared the prepubertate audience some, and then it took me time & effort to shut down the "Is it December yet?" loop and switch to Harry Potter. thanks, but no thanks!
then again, the two are, in a loopy kind of way my mind works, connected. because in the beginning there was Sirius Black - movie version of Sirius Black, and before that, casting news. and I clearly remember myself being all WTF? no, really, WTF? because Gary Oldman and that role were SO incredibly wrong for each other. mean, I knew he would be fcking good, when is he not, but Sirius Black? WTF... then I saw the film[s], and we know how that went #-) I absolutely adore movie!Sirius, who is quite different from his book canon counterpart. and no, I do not think changing the character that much and that way was a right thing to do, but the result? can't help but love.
and now this. SO much with the WTF, yes, from casting to concepts. and yet. it could well be a train wreck most spectacular, but I can't help this funny feeling...
...fuck me sideways, is it December yet?
#-)

mood: cynical
sound: Freddie Mercury - Love me like there's no tomorrow

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I'm making some bingo progress by convincing myself that out of the blue and WTF is, in fact, okay. different from long, deep, well-reasoned stories with actual plot, yes, but okay. oftentimes "because" is the right answer.
when I fail to be convincing enough I, naturally, stall.
then I dig up the source[s] to confirm that I had that briefly-mentioned-in-a-sentence little fact right all the time. *facepalm*
I also owe people feedback.

what do I do? why, write long-winded and extremely badly advised pr0n. a hopeless case :-(

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sound: Unheilig - Freiheit

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awwww, be careful what you ask for, you might just get it. got my title, growing [un]naturally out of the story itself. worse, like the proverbial cat, it dragged something in. ah, that song!

Out of the mist of history he’ll come again
Sailing on ships across the sea to a wounded nation
Signs of a savior and fire on the water
It’s what we prayed for, one of our own

Just wait though wide he may roam
Always a hero comes home
He goes where no one has gone
But always a hero comes home...


and so forth. context has had its revenge, and I am enough of a brat to laugh at that.
wish I was not sober for this, would have an excuse then #-)

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sound: Unheilig - Skin

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Write or Die's evil sounds are fun #-)
of course, of course I failed to write 500 words in 15 minutes, but I'm getting there! OMG, once it's... made into an actual story [for a given value of story], I might well have about 1/2K of bingo goodness. funneh '-)
the amazing thing, as always, is the story surprising the hell out of me. "so that is what you were about"-like. at least this time I'm positive it's just thoughts on the subject surfacing in some order, but to watch them do so is no less fascinating.
hello, weirdo handsome. now we need to get you a title, oh dear.

PS: ahhahaha, I was worried about *water*? I should not have #-)

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sound: unheilig - sieh in mein gesicht

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why is Amazon trying to sell me porn?? it looks too crass & obnoxious to be anything else. has heat-induced brainmelt reached the States as well? *eyeroll*
and the Brits persuade me to go get The Ultimates 2, part 2. the one with lightsabers, and rainbows, and Tony's amazing eye color changes, yes... still, *eyeroll*
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online quizzes are fun. [*grumble* really, is there a time limit, like in Write or Die, to type a quiz? because 95% of them look like something fired off, probably at gunpoint, and never ever revised. I just wonder.] even when a quiz says I scored as somebody else entirely, it displays the highest score for... right #-) Tony and I, we confuse the internets, albeit for different reasons.
so I'm 92% like Tony or Reed, closely followed by... Wolverine #-) then there's 67% of Deadpool, Gambit and Nick Fury, and a lesser dose of, equally, Professor X, the Punisher, Spider-Man and the Hulk. and 33% of either the Sentry or Steve Rogers. o_0 scary Marvel '-)
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grumble )
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it's too hot to live. come on. one of your bingo candidates is set in the Arctic Ocean, go for it '-)

mood: hot
sound: как веруем и мы сами, не ведая, что творим